I love my job

I had an interesting day yesterday. Okay, it was also amazing, and also gross.

I got herded into the back of the deer chute with gloves and some lube and got my diploma in deer midwifery. The poor baby was being born upside down and would have suffocated pretty fast had we not pulled him out. I have the skinniest hands here, so I got the honor of reaching in and pulling out the hooves so that the rest of the little man would come out. We dried him off real good and brought him in the house because his mama didn't have a lot of milk. Funny thing though, it turns out he had a twin brother who was born later and seems to be nursing alright. Oh well, the mama certainly didn't have enough milk for twins! So I'm now the little guys mama (or at least he's fully convinced that I am!)

Interesting facts about newborn deer. They're immediately hungry. They're immediately trying to get up. They have a soft wax-like tip on their hooves that eventually dries and falls off. And yes, when they first start walking, they walk exactly like Bambi :)

I like this life

Here are my thoughtful musings for the day:

*Fawns are squeeably adorable, especially when they're trying to nurse on your arm, leg, neck, or armpit with their soft little lips and noses (My word, does that tickle!)

*Fawns aren't quite so adorable when you have to wipe their little butts to make them go to the bathroom :P

*Texans are remarkably friendly, polite, funny, nice people. They cuss a lot, and yet most claim to be Christians. I suppose you could say they kind of define old school America. Or at least the old school America of country music.

*I hear tell of a non-denominational cowboy church in Uvalde. If I can manage it, I think I'd really like to go.

*I saw a roadrunner today!

*Siestas are still in style down here. Woot!

*I feel like I'm being paid, fed, and housed to have fun. Not that that's a bad thing :)

*Yup, that's all.

An Ode to Travelers

To all of you pack, unpack, and repack your life

On a regular basis.

To all of you who, when trying to find something,

Wonder what state, or country, or hemisphere you left it in

To all of you whose sense of accomplishment comes from

Fitting your life in the back of a car or pickup truck

To all of you who move from one time zone to another

Instead of one part of town to another

To all of you who are pros at sleeping

Wherever you find an empty spot

To all of you whose best friends are named

"Atlas" and "Google Maps"

To all of you who feel as if you'd go mad

If you were to stay in place for over a year

To all of you who feel panicked or talk for 5 minutes

When the question "Where are you from?" is asked

To all of you who can't remember where you are

When you wake up. It's okay.

To all of you whose hearts are scattered across the world

Because "Home is where the heart is"

Here's to all you modern day nomads :)

I waited over a year for that conversation.

Not sure why I strung my emotions on for so long.

It wasn't healthy, I know.

I was just too scared to bring it up.

Or too mad.

Now that I think about it, why was I angry?

Hmm...

I'm free now, though.

Thank you so much.

And thank you Lord, for finally answering my prayer.

Even though my heart hurts, it feels good.

Good things...

My heart got a little hurt today, but considering how much I've gone through in the past few months, it doesn't hurt as much as it could. If anything I now know how I've made a few other people feel... ouch.

But that to say, I realized a couple days ago that, dang, my blog is kinda depressing. I'm not too depressed, I promise! Life really is good, or at least God certainly is. The friends he has blessed me with are truly remarkable. Even when my life is careening down a rabbit hole and I'm cranky about it, they still tell me I'm cool, or share a blanket with me, or let me crash on their couch, or share their food with me, or leap out of barely stopped cars to hug me. *sigh*. I like those people, a whole lot.

Oh, and speaking of things I like, birds are also on my happy list. I went out to Rose Creek with Mom today, and we saw several western bluebirds. Such lovely, vibrant little creatures. Also saw a house finch, several pygmy nuthatches, california quail, and heard a very vocal pheasant.

And pretty flowers.

That is all.

I Don't Know

I'm coming to realize that I use that phrase waaaay to much. I actually do know... most of the time at least.

I've had an odd day.

I went to get my hair trimmed, because it's growing out haphazardly. It's now quite short again, but all a fairly even length so it shouldn't end up too much like a mop... or a mullet. The guy who cut my hair automatically assumed that Alana and I were a couple, and was kind of disappointed when we told him we're both straighter than a straightedge. Why is this? Why must people assume that I like girls simply because I have short hair? It's convenient in a time when everything else in my life is so wildly out of control! I like boys (talked to a very nice one today, as a matter of fact)! Is that so hard to believe in this mess of society we live in?!

So yes, that wasn't funny, that hurt a little... or a lot. I like my hair, but I'm growing it out, starting today.

Oh, you know...

*It's almost 11:30 pm, and I'm still awake, laying on my bed, drinking a blueberry lager. I lead an exciting life.

*I got my lip pierced (vertical labret) on tuesday. It kinda hurts, but not too bad.

*I think I need to get my hair cut again, it's growing out in a strange fashion.

*I'm really excited to go to an Abney Park concert with Colleen on Sunday. It shall be epically ridiculous!

*The library is becoming my new best friend; I love young adult fiction.

*I really need to work on my books...

*And my drawing...

*And my bridesmaid dress...

*I have so much time, and yet procrastinate so much. Lame.

*I feel as if I should have a more educated vocabulary.

*I'm moving to Texas on May 30th (Lord willing)!!! This will be a hard job, but I think it will be good.

*I need to prove to myself that I'm not lazy.

*I think I might like a boy... maybe... I'm not quite sure yet. I really wish I could talk to him more.

*Alana, Dani, Hannah, and I are thinking about taking a trip to Europe in May. I hope it works out!

*Alana has been really sick this week. I hope the weekend makes a difference.

*I don't know what to do when she doesn't want to eat, and just wants to sleep all the time...

*Granted, she doesn't know what to do either. My poor sister :(

*Does anyone want to do something with me on any evening in the next couple weeks?

*Distractions are amazing! Just throwing that out there.

*He is faithful, even when we are faithless...

*I have a lot of doubts and worries and wonderings and ponderances.

*I need to bring them to Him; that would make my life so much more bearable right now.

*Why are the things that are good for us so hard to do?

*Praise God, for He is always bigger.