Silly girl

Yes, I am a silly girl. I like boys, probably too much for my own good. And for some reason that's where all my conversations with my girl friends have ended up lately. I wish sometimes (often times) that God would make it obvious that He has gifted me with singleness, and then I can roll up my jean legs, kick off the shoes, and run through the fields, focusing on God and what he has for me to do.

But that's not what God has given me.

I know that I have been given a great capacity to love, and especially when I have come close to "being in a relationship" this becomes even more obvious. If I ever find the right guy, I know that I will hold on to him (often literally, I'm sure :P) and love and respect him until death does us part.

I want to be loved, cherished, and pushed into corners and kissed like there's no tomorrow. *sigh*. Yep, I'm a hopeless romantic, and that's all there is to it. Sorry if that was too much information, but it's been on my mind a lot lately. And I know that in this state it's more important than ever to take every thought captive (thanks for reminding me of that, Brooke), so that I can wait on God's timing, believing that He knows who is best for me, and also when is best for the both of us, whoever he is.

Protecting hearts = a very good thing!

Baby elephants

I love my housemates

Sooooo much

I also love the wonderful boys who, although there is no genetic relationship, I can call my brothers

It's a beautiful thing how God can unite people who otherwise would never have been friends, and probably would have never met each other

I may be cranky and antisocial sometimes. And take homework to Rico's. And not always dance at CJ's. And stand in the corner sometimes. But honestly, I treasure my time with you all, and honestly believe that these years are some of the best of my life.

And yes, baby elephants... and giraffes

Drips of conciousness

Life is so confusing

And yet at the same time, it's so simple

A robin perched outside my window makes me smile, even as I describe it's fluffyness as an attempt to increase it's boundary layer

Threadless t-shirts rock my... well, technically my torso and shoulders

There is a coracoid process on the subscapular side of the cat scapula, above the glenoid fossa

I have an anatomy lab exam tonight, and now understand why people disappear when they take this class

Someday I want to be kissed while climbing a tree

I like swings a lot, even if they do make me queasy sometimes

Missing people or worrying about them does absolutely nothing unless you do something about it

To myself I am only my dreams, to others I am only my actions

Kittens, ferrets, baby chickens & quails, and hamster piles

Double bergamont earl gray tea is amazing; almost as amazing at Tetley, but not quite

God is outside of time. Think about that one for awhile

He also knows what's best, and complaining is not constructive nor enjoyable to be around

Sunfleck is actually a word. Oh, the possibilities!

Cuddle puddle. I wants one.

Extraordinary?

In church today the sermon involved the Holy Spirit coming upon people in extraordinary ways. That said, I had an epiphany which was somewhat unrelated.

A lot of people lately have been telling me that I'm cool, or spunky, or amazing, or smart, etc. Not gonna lie, I tend to not believe it. But during the sermon today I realized that I am actually a rather extraordinary person. Don't take this the wrong way, I haven't suddenly become a narcissist, I've just realized that God has given me a lot of random and rather unique gifts, especially within my circle of Christian friends.

That said, God has made me amazing, but without Him, it means absolutely, positively, zip zero, nada, nothing. I need to use my gifts to serve Him and others in amazing ways, and in areas that are often not given much attention by Christians. Like my major.

So yeah, I don't usually know what to do with myself, but that's okay, because I am not my own, I have been bought with a price.

This morning dew called life

I prayed yesterday morning (after waking up at 11:00 a.m. oops) and found the song "I Surrender All." I guess I had never actually read the words to that song, because they made me cry when I realized I cling to sooo much of my life. I was called a planner a few weeks ago, and I realized how true that is. If things don't go the way I plan, I whine or get mad. I am such a twit.

I wish that I could control how my graduate school application is reviewed, and make the university accept me into their program. But I can't.

I wish I could control my emotions, and make things work out with certain people, because they really are wonderful. But I can't.

I wish I could be disciplined and self controlled, and beat those perpetual sins into the mud beneath my feet. But I can't.

I wish I could make things work out between all my friends so they stop hurting. But I can't.

I wish that I could control how my job applications are reviewed, and make people give me the job I want. But I can't.

I wish I could control my life. BUT I CAN'T.

*sigh*

In a sense I am trying to do God's job, and when a person does that they are ALWAYS bound for failure. So why do I try? I wish I knew. What I do know is that it needs to stop.

All to Jesus I surrender,
Humbly at His feet I bow,
Worldly pleasures all forsaken,
Take me Jesus, take me now.
I surrender all,
I surrender all,
All to thee my blessed Savior
I surrender all

Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things will be added unto you.

Life is Good

So I found out today, that as soon as you wake up in the morning you should thank God for the day and ask him to make it good. It worked for me today, and despite circumstances dictating otherwise... I had a wonderful day :)

That said, I felt the need to show you what makes one half of Em tick:





Are they not beautiful?

Recipe for Insta Happy

1 grilled cheese sandwich (using Tillamook sharp cheese)
1 bowl warm applesauce with cinnamon on top
1 chilly January day
1-2 sunspots
1 cat (if available)

Put the sandwich and applesauce bowl on a plate and sit down in the sunspot, preferably indoors. Depending on the size and location of the sunspot, you may need 2 of them. Slowly eat the food and bask in the sun. If a cat is available to you, pet it intermittently (they generally don't leave sunspots anyway). Add hugs to taste.